Notes from the circus

Psalm:1 I waited on the Lord; and He inclined unto me, and heard my cry. 2 He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay. and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.
This verse is so true for me. As my anniversary approaches I always want to reflect on my life with Wade. What a journey our marriage has become. I find it so interesting and exciting to see how God has changed me and continues to do so. When I married Wade I expected much less actually, than God has blessed us with. I thought we`d have a few children, own a house, a dog ( we have the dogs) :), but I never really expected to be blessed the way we have been. God pulled me out of the muck, and set my feet on His path, it is a wonderful thing to know you are in His will. What a Rich life I live and could Never deserve. I often wonder WHY, why would God do all that He has done for me and all He continues to do. This is the true meaning of His Grace. He loves to bless us and show us His love for us. Sometimes the hard part is actually humbling ourselves to accept it. We have got to take God out of our little box, and acknowledge how great He is, in order to fully experience Him in our lives.
There have been some questions and concerns that have been brought up to me about our newest blessing and I`d just like to address them here.
I know some people may think I push my ideas on my husband, but this is not the case. I can appeal to him, but in the end it is left up to him to decide. It has been a wonder blessing to see my man step up and trust God in this area of our lives. It has been a leap of faith for both of us and we want to give God the Glory. How good is our God, that He would trust us with a new life, that He ,who created all ,would allow us to partner with Him, to bring forth a new person. What an awesome blessing and responsibility, and we do not take it lightly.
You may say, how will we pay for this new baby, Wade will work himself to death just trying to make ends meet, but I say this is wrong thinking. God will provide just as He has with all of our children. As a matter of fact, we always tend to be doing better when we have a new baby.
There are always those who will worry and wonder," what could they be thinking" and I don`t wish to change people, that`s God`s work. My goal here is to help those wondering about our hearts and motives understand our point of view.
God`s word is clear; Psalm127:3 Lo, children are an heritage of the Lord: and the fruit of the womb is His reward.
We want to always look upon God`s gifts as just that, gifts from a loving, Gracious God, who does mighty things in our lives, when we allow Him full rein. His thoughts are not our thoughts, His ways are not our ways, but if allow Him in more and more, we can get closer toward that goal.
This is truely the goal for our lives and the example we want for our own children. And so, we gladly welcome this new baby, how ever long God decides to bless us with him in our lives. May the Glory Always go to Him. Amen.